How do I get through days like .. today? I don't. It's been the roughest 10 weeks of my life. I want to unwind... but I have 7 finals to figure out... as well as learning not to dwell on that fact that I'm not ready to be a dentist. That would be amazing if this school taught in a way.. and recruited the types of students who will all be wonderful clinicians after 9-ish weeks of drilling. Wouldn't that be nice? Reality is... if it was this easy to be a dentist.. I'm sure many more people would do it. I can't expect myself to be the best driller and filler after 9 weeks of school.. (10 days of instruction only...for this class). I will expect myself to be wonderful after a few more months of learning. Until then.. I will try not to let this get me down. I've thrown away and left behind so many parts of my life that have truly defined me... my friends.... family... baking... yea... this accelerated program is slowing draining the life out of me.. and before I can say.. I'm so grateful that I'm in.. I have to wonder... what they saw in my application.. to allow me to be where I am today. I sit in sim lab many days absorbing the views and dreaming of the day when it will all click.. the day my hand will be super steady... the day when I will just get it. The Lab part is over for the quarter. I just don't know how I will survive next week.. but I have to. It would be selfish of me not to try my best. So many people dream of being where I am right now.... some I'm sure are more qualified than I was... and although I am miserable and frustrated at my inability to understand and do things... I should be thankful that I've been given this opportunity to pursue something I've wanted for so long. So these 7 finals... will define me for the next week... yea.. just a few hundred hours of lecture to go over... no biggy.. no pressure. Right. no pressure. at least my grades won't be set in stone for awhile..... thank goodness for year long courses...
Monday - Perio Exam
Tues- Dead Day.. yep just one.. day...
Wed- Restoratives and Human Anatomy (Ugh.. cadavers) Final
Thurs- Biochem and Operative Final
Fri- Physiology and Dental Anatomy Final
Sat- BREAK and Vacation for a week...FINALLY... then diving head first into the hardest quarter of d-school... at least that's what everyone tells me... sigh. 8AM -5PM Mon-Fri? ... + lab til 9... each night....I have a new found respect for all dentists who graduated from my school.... I don't think any school is this intense.. cramming 2 years of schooling into one..... :/.. maybe that's why all the other schools are 4 years...
A note on that pic above... they are like removable dentures that are custom made to fit my teeth... I made these in class yesterday.. I didn't want to go fancy.. it wasn't being graded.. I didn't even feel like polishing them... even though one day I might. I can totally see someone with these teeth somewhere... maybe I will treat someone with these teeth one day... haha anyway.. we made halloween teeth. I wanted just ugly teeth.. so I made them super crooked and made it look like I was a heavy smoker... I even have a spot for the cig... and then I scratched the heck out of it... and embedded some black stuff to the scratched... so it looks like I haven't brushed in ages... yea.. looks great in my mouth... ahha quite scary I'd say..... I doubt I'd want to look like this even if it's for halloween.. haha
I made myself some earl grey hot chocolate just now.. that definitely hit the spot.. althought I don't have a pic... I will share my recipe... since I love the chocolate earl grey combination.. and don't think many people have discovered the deliciousness of that combo yet.. :)
Earl Grey Hot Chocolate
Makes 1 serving
3 tsp cocoa powder ( I use Ghirardelli)
2 tsp sugar ( or to taste)
1/4 cup water
3/4 cup whole milk
sprinkle of salt
1/2 tsp vanilla extract ( I use imitation)
Earl Grey Tea Bag ( I use the Tazo brand )
1. Mix cocoa powder and sugar in a bowl.
2. add water to a small sauce pan... and turn the heat to med-low. Add powder mixture.
3. Stir until combine and dissolved, don't turn the heat on too high... it will burn.
4. When mixture starts to bubble, add milk and salt, bring to a gentle boil.
5. Add tea bag and simmer for 3-5 minutes.
6. Add vanilla extract, and remove tea bag.
Banana cupcake (not muffin... I used cake flour to get it super soft and fluffy)... recipe to follow one day... all I have to say is.. finally... a recipe out of the Cupcakes book that is worth going back to... Pierre is definitely doing good things for me lately... it really is a time saver to have a stand mixer... (I just found out that they're discontinuing my mixer's model :( .. and that KA mixers are at a record low for prices this year poopy. haha ) .. anyway.. I'm happy with my Pierre.. and but I'm wondering what I should do with my meat grinder.... I'm so tempted to sell it.
Hope everyone is doing well..and enjoying the last few weeks of Summer :)
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